If I had a choice, I would pause my life. Everything seems to be the way I like it, for the most part. I don't have many friends, but the ones I do have will be there for awhile. I have Ian. My mom is like my bestfriend, and I want that to stay that way. I'm at a point where I kind of keep to myself, except for the few friends, and it's working perfectly for me. I wouldn't want to rewind, because I hate my past. I didn't have good friends, wasn't treated very well, and would just be who everyone else wanted me too be. I've grown to learn to just be who you are, and that's how it is. I hate change, so that's another good reason for a pause button. I would love to stay this age forever. I do not want to grow up. I don't wake up in the mornings and dread the days that are coming, I have no trouble sleeping anymore, and I'm rarely crabby or sad. I know things won't be like this forever, but I wish they would. I would enjoy having a rewind button though, to change the way I came to be who I am. I wouldv'e stuck up for myself a long time ago. I would've found who I want to be and who I want to be with a long time ago. But, a pause button would be great right now.
